pause

i want to pause. According to Merriam and Webster online.
1
: a temporary stop
2
a : a break in a verse b : a brief suspension of the voice to indicate the limits and relations of sentences and their parts
3
: temporary inaction especially as caused by uncertainty : hesitation
4
a : the sign denoting a fermata b : a mark (as a period or comma) used in writing or printing to indicate or correspond to a pause of voice
5
: a reason or cause for pausing (as to reconsider) a thought that should give one pause
6
: a function of an electronic device that pauses a recording

what i know is i don't want to quit nor stop. or maybe it's this ingrained thinking in me that to quit or to stop is a sign of failure. and i dislike failing.

so there. i put it out there. this is my first true emo blog.